lately, i've been missing g.
sure, he's around. sure, we live in the same house & he doesn't travel or work 20 hour days for a living, but sometimes he isn't able to be "home" when he's home. between working 50-60 hours per week and preparing law school applications & essays on the side, i don't think he's ever had so much on his plate.
in contrast, this semester has been one of the best & easiest that i've ever dealt with and i don't think i've ever had less on my plate, which leaves me wanting to spend every free moment with him & him not really having any free moments to give.
i was thinking about all of this today as i drove home from a blissful dentist appointment (seriously, it was blissful. i love my dentist visits & if you think i'm crazy, i'll be happy to tell you why) with a half numb mouth and nose. after getting a cavity filled (my first in 5 years!), i didn't yet have the ability to rub my lips together and looked ridiculous when i tried to smile or laugh. just as i exited the freeway, g called to ask how it went and when he realized that i was about to pass his office, he told me to come by for a quick visit.
naturally, i refused to come inside, so he ran out to the parking lot in his business attire, instead. for the next five minutes, he sat inside my sunny car & proceeded to make me smile and laugh from embarrasment about the way i looked, which completely reminded me of the first time we ever spoke. we were sitting in my old jetta, smiling & laughing like giddy fools who were about to fall in love. and now, here i was, almost 4 years later, embarrassed because i looked like an idiot with a crooked grin, but not able to stop smiling none the less.
moments like these are truly what make the hard days completely worth it and i love when i am reminded that regardless of what stresses we are faced with in the future, i have no doubt that we will still find a way to make each other laugh.