Friday, May 31, 2013

north carolina.

It's no big secret that my blogging has taken a big hit since the twins were born. I'm now almost 7 months in and feeling much more in control of my life and ready to jump back on the blogging bandwagon! I've missed these stupid posts and hope I can get back into the rythym of documenting our happenings. With that said, I'm behind. I am so, so behind. There will be lots of random, back-dated, overly sappy posts popping up in your reader feed over the next few months (assuming I'm still on your reader feed? Knock knock?? Anyone? Anyone?) and I apologize in advance.

First off, North Carolina!

Greg and I had the opportunity to travel back to Durham, NC a few weeks ago for his big graduation from Duke University. It was my first time leaving Will & Nora and only my second time leaving Evie since she was born. I was a wreck the night before and honestly felt sick to my stomach that night as I tried to fall asleep. It was really hard for me to leave the babies and I missed them so so much! I missed Evie too, of course, but I felt really confident that she knew exactly where she was, who she was with (her beloved Nana) and was having a blast without me, so it wasn't as difficult as leaving my sweet tiny babies. Luckily, they both did great and it was the sweetest reunion back home on Mothers Day.

North Carolina was gorgeous. GORGEOUS. We will be moving there immediately, obviously, and I'm certain all of my friends and family members will follow accordingly. We loved the greenery everywhere and the old-town historic charm of the neighborhoods in Chapel Hill and Durham, which actually reminded me a lot of where we live in Sugarhouse (but much greener and more amazing).

Greg and I had such a wonderful few days together. I love spending time just the two of us and recconecting without the ENORMOUS stress and disctraction of our children. We had long talks on car rides, so many fun dinners out, a few adventures exploring and just so much fun together. I love that man and I loved being on his arm all weekend and cheering for him at his graduation. It doesn't get much better than Gregory J., he's the most dedicated, motivated, smart, selfless, capable, honest, wonderful man I know. I am so lucky he is mine and I loved our little trip together.

Here are some pictures from the trip!

Greg was really excited to take me for Chicken & Waffles. It was pretty much #1 on his list and was the first stop we made Friday morning with Ali & Brandon. I regret to tell you that I wasn't the biggest fan of chicken & waffles (I know, I know! I'm the worst!). The chicken was great, the waffle was great, the combo, on the other hand--not my favorite.

We toured Duke's campus and Duke Gardens after brunch. What an incredible campus! All the students at that school are so lucky to be going there, I was in love with the charm of it all and especially with those huge picnic tables (they look like boats) that rock.

The next day was graduation. I was so stoked to hear bag pipes before the students started to walk, because Greg LOVES the bagpipes. So fitting for his special day!

 Could he look more studious? I think not. Congrats Grad!
 We loved seeing our friends, Brandon & Ali, and spent lots of our free time with them. These two are the greatest and we can't wait for lots more trips and fun in the future!

happy to be back home with my darlings!

 Can't wait til next time, North Carolina!!

Thursday, May 30, 2013

life with twins - six months in.

Somehow (seemingly overnight) I'm now the mom of six month old twins.

No longer newborns, the baby stage is slipping by me faster and faster. Will and Nora are both sleeping through the night (that started around 3 months, bless their souls!), eating rice cereal (when I can find the time, honestly you guys, it's not often.), putting their own binkies back in their own mouths, smiling, laughing, babbling, rolling all over the room, teething, paying attention to books, idolizing their big sister, beaming at Mom and Dad, and embarking upon "stranger danger".

I want to throw all the cliches at you. "It's gone by too fast! In the blink of an eye! I turned around and half a year had passed!" And it's true. But it's not. It has been fast, but it's also been slow. Life with twins is strange that way. A month flies by like lighting, but a day can be excruciatingly slow. I've learned so much about myself in the past six months, and I've been pushed to my physical, emotional and mental limits. It has been a big experience in my life, one that I know I'll look back on fondly but also with a deep sense of "how the hell did I survive??" because at times, it has been really rough. Truth be told, I could use a full-time mother's helper, or nanny. I could use a cleaning lady (oh my gosh, I need a cleaning lady). My husband works long days and I run up and down the stairs in my house no less than 200 times a day and my kids NEVER all nap at the same time (never, ever, we aren't getting back together, IT DOESN'T HAPPEN.) My kids are all really little and really needy and they all poop their pants and sleep in cribs and are down right exhausting.

But even still, it's a JOY.

I can honestly say that everything about having twins has been better than I expected. Everything has been happier, been brighter and sunnier and I have found myself to be more capable than I ever thought I would be. I really don't mean to toot my own horn here AT ALL, I just want to offer up my perspective. Having multiples is really hard and you will find no shortage of people who'll tell you just how hard multiples can be, so I just want to throw my own little voice into the mix and chime in to say "it wasn't as bad as I imagined it would be!". Because so far, it's really not as bad as I imagined it would be (but that said, I imagined that it would be REALLY bad. Like, I was barely even excited and mostly just terrified). I know that most of this is due to the fact that I love babies. I've always liked babies, but having babies (and especially have two babies simultaneously) has made me realize that babies are my sweet spot. Babies are my jam. So, give me TWO adorable, smiley, squishy, cuddly, drooly babies, and most days I'll really love it.

My life didn't end, the way I thought it would. Today I took all 3 kids to Tracy Aviary and things were fine, and Greg and I take our kids out to dinner and it's fine, and really, the last six months have been so good in so many ways. I have also been so blessed to be surrounded by so many loving people who've made all the difference during this time. My Mom has been an angel and spent so much of her time during these past 6 months helping me and babysitting for me and cheering me up and cheering me on. We've received countless dinners from friends, ward members and neighbors. Greg's mom has a heart of gold and wants to visit and babysit anytime she gets the chance. I have the sweetest sisters-in-law on planet earth who've helped with the twins and with Evie and been such a source of comfort and support for me. I don't have the words to thank everyone adequately. I have been so humbled and touched by the service we've received and I wouldn't be as happy or sane or okay as I am today without each of you. It means the world. So, thank you.

We are 6 months in, and we have 6 months to go. I know that these next 6 months will be just as challenging as the past 6, albeit in different ways. And I know they will be just as happy and exciting as well. I am up for the challenge. I am lucky to be their mom. I am so lucky to be a Mom, period. It is the biggest blessing I've ever known. It is hard and exhausting and wonderful and I hope it won't pass me by too quickly.

A picture's worth a thousand words, so here are a thousand of pictures to say all of this better than I can.



And there you have it. The good, the bad, and the ugly.

PS. This random assortment of pictures are essentially from the first 2 weeks of Will & Nora's life and the most recent 2 weeks. And I really narrowed it down. The other day I was saying to Greg that I worry I don't take enough pictures. Let's all have a good laugh.