chicken.

pic from our trip to hawaii.
dear hawaii, i miss you.

i've decided i'm a chicken.
and no, mom, it's not just because chicken's are our favorite.
which, they are, but that's beside the point.

i just scrolled through my archived posts & read every one with the word "draft" next to it. it's really quite sad to see what i've decided to leave off of this blog. there are ghost-posts about the first time i met g, my thoughts about my marriage, my struggles, my opinions, my moments; good & bad. i really love to write for a lot of reasons, but mostly i write to remember. to sort things out, to savor the good and let go of the bad. all these silent posts have come from my heart and been genuine, so why haven't i published any of them?

i don't know what i'm so afraid of?

i wish i had the courage to just hit "publish" & brace myself for the criticism, the negative comments, the "this is so boring & you are so cheesy" response from the masses. i really wish i would just go for it.

so my question to you tonight is, what gives you the courage to put yourself out there? to really write about your life? what inspires you to be brave and publish that silly post you wrote that feels dumb and insignificant now, but also felt so true & honest when you were pounding away on the keyboard? the one you wrote because you were crying, or giddy, or nostalgic, or mad, or head over heels in love?

what makes you brave enough to hit "publish"?
tell me, please.

or, are you a chicken, too?

cinco de mayo!

Buenos días, Amigos y Feliz Cinco de Mayo!

¿Cómo va a ser el gasto esta encantadora 5 de mayo? Esposo y yo ambos estarán celebrando con fiestas en el trabajo y luego, posiblemente, un poco de México Fiest cuando llegamos a casa.

Dudo alguien está leyendo esto, pero si lo son, gracias, amigo. Forma de ser. Y gracias por leer mi blog poco tonto. Tú eres mi nueva BFF, pero no le digas a mi viejo, k?

Este es mi mensaje secreto para usted.
Durante & Out.

pom love & mr. jack bauer.

hooray for monday!

i found out today that i won miss marta's pom giveaway. how wonderful! i never win anything.

a beautiful pom kit is coming to live at my house & you can bet i will be finding random reasons to throw parties all summer just so i can use them!

thanks marta! you made my monday.

on another note: happy happy birthday to mr. j bubba olsen, who turned 2 yesterday! woo hoo for the big 2 year old! thanks, j bub, for being my bff for the past two years. thanks for never ever leaving me alone & following me every where i go, even though sometimes you drive me insane. thanks for being so gosh darn photogenic and posing whenever i want to play with my camera. thanks for loving me even when i push you off the bed at 2 am and you fly into my dresser. i really am sorry about that one. we love you, j bub. now quit eating your poop!!!

rain, rain.

please stay all day.

you are making this ordinary saturday morning
quite magical.

me & g.

did this last year.

it was a blast. we tried some cool restaurants we otherwise wouldn't have & finally ate at some of the pricier places in town. i'm even more excited to utilize the deal this time, considering now we live in the heart (sort of) of downtown. oh, and if you only do it once, go to bambara. the food is so amazing (i'm still thinking about the hummus) & it will cost you an arm & a leg to eat there otherwise. and call us if you ever want company...eating out is always better with friends.

okay & this is awesome, too. i totally want to go. i never knew you were so cool, slc.

my 10.

01. fresh diet coke.
02. fine point sharpies.
03. g's dimples & scruff.
04. hydrangeas. (mine is still alive!)
05. long walks late at night.
06. bright red nail polish.
07. my new desktop picture. (thank you kenz)
08. city lights through the window.
09. lemon cake for lunch.
10. prayer.


oh, and that trip & those boys, too.
i have to add this wonderful post. gosh, she is so inspiring, isn't she?

geegers. geegerson. gjo. my g.

Last night, I came home feeling blah. I was overwhelmed, discouraged, tired and negative. After listening to me complain about my not-so-hard day, G cooked dinner, cleaned the kitchen and loaded all the dishes while I relaxed. Watching him do these sweet things for me reminded me that I am so glad I married my polar opposite. He possesses so many of the qualities I lack. Not that I wouldn't do the same for him if he'd had a rough day, but I appreciate the fact that he never gets easily stressed & overwhelmed the way I do. He is just so solid and happy.

G, thanks for being you. Thanks for being positive, and full of hope, and quick to look on the bright side of things. Thanks for cooking me dinner when I'm tired & never complaining about your long days (longer than mine) the way I do. Thanks for seeing the little joys in our life and for reminding me to appreciate the now.

Thanks for being all the things I'm not.

hello.

I love blogging. I really, really do. But, I seriously don't have time for it these days. It used to be that I would blog after I got home from work. After all, it was usually already dark outside & sometimes it was snowing and there was no need to do anything besides watch TV, veg out & blog.

But now.

Now I get home and it's beautiful outside. And I want to go for a walk, or to the park, or to a café and eat dinner on the patio. At the very least, I want to sit on the grass or on my porch and watch the sun set and smell the blossoms.

So, I apologize for the lack of posts & the boring nature of my blog. And I understand if you don't stop by anymore. But hey, while I've got you here..how about a funny story?

The other night, G & I attended family dinner at my parents house. My sweet Grandma, Pansey Valaine, was there, too. Oh, how I love my cute little Grandma. Anyways, G & I had been teasing each other all night about who was stronger (we tend to do this...compete like siblings). We couldn't agree on who would win in a smack-down, so after dinner, we cleared out the living room & decided to settle the dispute once and for all. It was a good fight, but unfortunately for me, G was the unanimous winner.

After we were done fighting/wrestling my Grandma chimed in with this gem of a comment, "If Jess & Greg had been fighting like that at home, it would have led to heavy sex."

Ummmm. Yah.

I don't know what to type. I didn't know what to say, either. My favorite part was that she included the word, "heavy"...not just REGULAR sex, but heavy sex. She's a firecracker, that one and I love that I can always count on her to say something completely random and slightly embarrassing. She went on to say other things, too. Things that I will not type here on the blog because they make me blush.

Anyways, besides fielding sex comments from my Grandma, here's a little list of what we've been up to lately.

1. G is working on his admissions essays for his Business School applications and he hates it. He would like everyone to know that writing is his "least favorite thing to do in the WORLD!!!" Now do you believe me that I married my polar opposite?

2. We went shooting on Saturday. G was in Heaven. I was slightly terrified and REALLY uncomfortable. Luckily, we both came out alive (I am dead serious) and although my ears rang for 2 days afterwords, I would MAYBE do it again.

3. G is applying for a new job at Goldman. Which could mean happy changes for our little family if he gets it. We'll see.

4. I start school again this summer, which means we will both be students again come Fall. Unfortunately this means more nights away from each other, rather than LIVING THE DREAM. I'm not looking forward to any of it.

5. Our pups are still alive. And sometimes, I even love them. Sometimes. (jk)

Besides that, it's been more of the same. Hopefully I'll think of something semi interesting to blog about in the near future.

Until then, Stay classy, bloggers....

And thanks for stopping by.

But mostly, stay classy.

admin appreciation day.

was yesterday.

for reals. it's a holiday. look it up.

our lovely boss bought us lunch & gave us all a little present.

we felt so appreciated.

but mostly it was just another excuse to eat lunch together & laugh until we peed our pants.

i love you, girls.

my life right now.

consists of:

people i thoroughly enjoy showing up at my house to say hello and eat strawberries with me, which i love.

cleaning out my closet and switching out winter clothes for summer clothes.
(hi j bub!)

walks & park outings with my 3 boyfriends
(although lately, no hat has been necessary!)

and snuggy time.

other than that, i am terribly uninspired to blog these days...it's just too beautiful outside!
i''ll see you this weekend, maybe, it's supposed to snow!