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Dear Fellow Bloggers,

I just turned to my friend, Monica, and said, "I think I'll stop blogging".

And she said, "What! Why?" and I told her "because it is serving no purpose". Let me explain.
I wanted to keep a blog so that I could chronicle these first few years of marriage with G. Like many of you, I wanted to bind it into a book someday for my kids & family to look at. It was my form of journaling (I SUCK at keeping a journal, which is odd, because I love to write). Anyways, can you imagine if your parents had kept a blog when they were newlyweds? And being able to read it as an adult? Unreal. I would DIE for the chance to see what they were up to at my age...What they thought, felt, did, who they were, etc...

That's why I started blogging.

But, now I feel torn for a few reasons. First of all, I feel like I am BORING EVERYONE TO DEATH when I write about our day-to-day activities. I want to keep track of what we are up to (for the journaling aspect of it all), but I honestly get embarrassed posting about what we did that weekend, because honestly, it is so boring (Honestly, I am being HONEST -I need to stop using that word). So, I feel pressure to only post about stuff that is interesting (or at least not completely UN-interesting) which means I rarely post about "What We Did This Weekend". So is it a journal? Not quite.

And also, I get nervous about saying too much & giving too many details, because I don't want some creeper to read about us & know things they shouldn't. And then I have to remind myself that like 4 people read this blog, anyways, but still, I wonder about that sometimes.

Also, I am a worrier. And I always worry that everything I write and everything I say is going to offend someone. I live in fear of offending others. It is the number one thing I wish I could get over. For example, me saying that I think a post about how G & I sat at home last weekend and played with our dogs is boring, will probably offend someone. So, I think to myself that I probably shouldn't say that. It is a vicious cycle.

Anyways, I am just wondering if this blog is really serving it's purpose? Maybe I should just start writing in my journal more, & let my chilies (chilies = my word for children) read that someday. At least then I won't have to worry about holding anything back. Or maybe, I should just make my blog private?

I am probably not making any sense right now. This is one of those boring posts that I write & really should not post. But oh well, I think I will post it. What are your thoughts about blogging? Is it serving it's purpose?

Love, J.