08.08.08

I have nothing to blog about, but there will never be another August, 8th, 2008, so I wanted to write something.

And since this is my blog, I am going to document 2 major milestones in my life. And trust me, they are HUGE.

1. I am no longer terrified of spiders. Yes, yes, I know. Little J is growing up. Up until about a month ago, I had never killed a spider in my life. In my LIFE. My previous strategy was to trap them under cups & let G lift the cup & smash the spider when he got home. But eventually, I got tired of all the cups (and the fact that I have no spine) and so I went ahead, and I killed one.

It was awful.

But then, the next day, I killed another. And another. And another. And now, I am no longer terrified of spiders. And I can kill them. This is HUGE.

2. I can now crack my neck. Is everyone dying of shock?

It all happened last week when I accidentally cracked my neck while reaching for a file. Naturally, my first reaction was to walk outside and jump off of the freeway overpass into on-coming traffic. But once that desire subsided, I realized that my neck suddenly felt better, lighter even. And so I did it again. And now I can't stop doing it. I think I've cracked my neck every morning from then on and I am just as shocked as the rest of you.

Milestones.

I realize more and more how different a person I am today, than I was just 2 years ago. In fact, I have been thinking about that very thing non-stop lately. It's not just that I can kill spiders, or sleep home alone, it's not any of those stupid things. I just feel different. More independent, maybe. More like myself. It's funny to me that being married to Greg has done this. I would have thought marriage would have the opposite effect. After all, I now live with a full-time spider killer. So why is it that I am finally killing them myself? I guess I just married a great person. Someone who is willing to watch me change and evolve and grow. Someone who tells me I am capable of more and someone who would never want to hold me back. Someone who says, "Get over it, Jess, kill the spider".

I love him for that.